Well things today have been a bit interesting, I ended up getting my usual $100 for the month for having to deal with my siblings while my mom works. I also ended up getting the money from a card I sold today, so overall I was in a good mood. I plan on putting the money towards the trip to go see Wheelo in June/July.

I'm not sure what the deal is, but lately it seems like I've had more on my mind than usual. Maybe it's because for once I'd like to have better convos with others instead of half hearted ones that tend to die only after a few sentences. Overall I've noticed that I have been doing a better job of having a good conversation. There are some people that I talk to though that I can't seem to strike up a convo with, I wonder what I'm doing wrong with them if anything that is. I can say this I've become more confident when I talk to friends.

I wish things were that simple though when it came to being more confident about myself overall. Even though there are points where I do feel confident, I just can't seem to maintain it. Fear tends to hold me back in that respect, but I don't expect it always be that way. I want to be confident about who I am, in both personality and how I look. However I doubt that it will be an easy task. I have issues when it comes to how I look, as I don't think that I'm that pretty. I'm not one of those girls who could be considered a toothpick, compaired to them I'm probably more along the lines of a boulder. *sighs* I know that looks change, but it doesn't change how I feel now.